Just want to smile

I'm always alone. I can't smile genuinely. It's hard when you consider how useless you are. I can draw but nothing's special. I can design website but nothing's special. I can code but not much as professional can. It's hard to communicate with other people when I don't know what good thing is about me.

Cannot see the future, and not much remember what was happened in the past.
I did wonder and not wonder in the same time. It's stupid but what should I do now?
Design website with half-hearted.
Drawing manga even as knowing it's not be any benefit to my supposed-to-be work-life.
I'm so tried, but I cannot sleep.
I want to talk with someone, anyone, but I don't know how to explain what I'm feeling right now. It's hard to become the words.

Miserable....

Nunu'

Late HBD to me

I hope there will be some good news in this 28th year. I really pray to it especially about getting job.