If I wanted to be an illustrator or artist, I would need to change the way I have drawn till now. I can but I am afraid that I might be going to hate drawing because it is something I don't want to do. When I draw something that so called improving your skill and make your work iconic, that works seem like they are lack of passion and lifeless, something is missing and I hate it, not my work but myself. I ponder a lot last night, the old work that people think it is so beautiful is something that I cannot create kinds of works at present. While I was doing that piece, I had a lot of passion putting in it. Every and each my master pieces have each stories behind. At this moment I cannot do that I forgot their stories and my feeling toward my works.
I don't know what I thought when I applied for Self-Promotion and Portfolio online course on illustcourse.com. It is helpful in the way of being freelancer and earning money, although I still have a doubt. Am I really OK with what she wrote? I used to be her fan, but somehow I found her works was changed I couldn't find any life inside her works. Or maybe I just didn't see them. It is a secret because many people likes her works. I am not respectful enough to against her reputation.
Art is so complicated, and I cannot do it without passion or spark. It likes a AU fan fiction I read Loveless. By the way, I found an interesting e-book, How To Be Creative by Hugh MacLeod.
The creative person basically has two kinds of jobs.
One is the sexy, creative kind. Second is the kind
that pays the bills.
See you next time!
